June 2011
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June 4, 2011
It hurts. So badly. To hear you say that you need more time away. I know that I’ve fucked up…but you have too. There has never been anyone in this world that I have loved and care for like I have for you. I have been beaten down by you. I have watched my heart be ripped from my chest because of you. You stomped on it and acted like you could care less. I have changed my world for you...
May 2011
2 posts
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May 25, 2011
I want you to feel again. Like you have before. I want you to know love where when you feel it’s slipping away it hurts. I want you to fight for me because you want to. I want you to look at me again the way you use to.
Some days I’m insecure. Some days I need an I love you more than others. That’s just me. I’ve spent so much of my life being numb that loving you was one...
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May 23, 2011
I thought that I was going to come here and be able to write out how I feel. But I’m still broken. And it hurts. I love you is all that I know to say. I love you. More than I have loved anybody in my life. I wish you could see and realize that.
February 2011
1 post
I want you to fall for me so hard, that you become...
pieceofmymind:
twentynothings:
karalewis:
(via justtwohearts-lostatsea, weeeenhi)
Maybe I should copy and paste this to her.
December 2010
2 posts
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December 30, 2010
This year has flown by like the blink of an eye. The year as a whole has been hard. One of the hardest years I have had to face. The past couple months have been amazing. I hope it continues that way through the next year.
I went back not too long ago and read some of the things I have wrote. It has been nothing short of a roller coaster ride for me. This is something you will never see but I...
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December 16, 2010
The past 415 days since I started this whole random letter writing has had so many up and downs. Insecurities. Happiness. Sadness. Bouts of aching where it actually hurt…physically.
The past few weeks have been the most amazing. Steadily amazing. Everything has been up. You make me so ridiculously happy that sometimes it doesn’t feel real. I’m waiting and bracing myself for the...
November 2010
1 post
October 2010
4 posts
1 tag
October 25, 2010
Anyone that reads this will probably think that I am a crazy ass bipolar that doesn’t know wtf she wants. One minute I love you, one minute I hate you. And then there is that gray area, that little area in between that keeps me here. Twisted up in this insanity of a relationship or in our case, relationshit. Nowhere in my mind should I ever think that what we have is remotely close to...
1 tag
October 24, 2010
I love you. Yesterday. Today. Tomorrow. Always. Forever. It won’t stop. I’ve tried. Your mine. Whether you want to believe it now or not. You are the one that I want. Stay with me and I’ll forever be yours.
“Don’t ever think I fell for you, or fell over you. I didn’t fall in love, I rose...”
– Toni Morrison (via captainzoe)
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October 13, 2010
Is it a surprise that I’m still caught up in this tangled web that I have weaved? Not really. While you are still continuously going out, having the time of your life, I get to enjoy the solitude. While you are out fucking whoever it is you are fucking, I get to sit here and type about how much I want you to just go away. I’ve tried a million and one times to keep myself at a distance...
May 2010
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May 30, 2010
Through all of this, I feel like I have failed myself the most. I continuously say that I am done. That I can not possibly take anymore. Anyone who finds this blog will probably agree that I am pretty fucked up. That I am a hypocrite of my own words.
It’s true. It’s all true.
I had this conversation with you the other night. It doesn’t matter what you do to me. How horribly you...
April 2010
1 post
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April 30, 2010
This is more than likely the last installment of writing anything to you. It took me this long to realize…exactly where I stand. It isn’t with you. It will never be beside you. It took you going to jail because of your crazy, fucked up baby momma situation for me to realize that this cycle…this vicious cycle…will continue for the rest of your life…or hers.
I...
March 2010
6 posts
1 tag
March 27, 2010
It took me a minute to realize what a dirt bag you are. All this time. Invested. Waiting. I’m done. I need to open my eyes and see the great things that I have in front of me. That keep me happy. I need to look around at the amazing people in my life. And forget you. Because you are an asshole. Truly. You will never change. No matter what you say. You will never be perfect for me. I’m...
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March 26, 2010
You sent a text. It said, Good night love. Do you mean that? You can’t even stay away from her even though the state of Florida says it is mandatory that you do so. You are more sick and twisted than I thought. I can’t trust you. I’m backing off.
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March 25, 2010
pooh I try so hard not to fuck my babydaddy but we still do even tho we have a no contact order he still came over today and it jus happened it was good to
Mood: Chillin Posted 17 hours ago from Mobile
pooh my babydaddy has fucked wit the wrong one he should not have had my kids around his ulgy ass bitch now i have fucked up his life i love it
Mood: great Posted at 8:38 PM Mar 17
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March 18, 2010
I’m sick of all the chatter. Of people standing outside looking in. Annoyed at me for not giving them the time of day because of you. You are what I want. You are what I need. You are where I want to be. Every day that goes by, it gets more complicated. I still hold on. To a possibility. Of happiness. Of love. Of never letting go. I don’t ever want to let go. I want to stay in your...
“A little bit of loving goes a long way.”
– Alexz Johnson (via quote-book)
“There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power....”
– Washington Irving (via quote-book)
February 2010
5 posts
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February 24, 2010
I’ve been thinking for the longest about how much longer things can go on like this. Me. You. Us. This situation. Is it fair to everyone involved? Are you going to eventually do the things you say you are going to do or are you just going to stay neutral in your little bubble. Awhile ago, I would have given up everything to leave this place and be with you. These days, I’m not so sure...
“Love one another and you will be happy. It’s as simple and as difficult as that.”
– Michael Leunig (via kari-shma) (via quote-book)
“Most profess to want love - to give it & to receive it - but few believe in...”
– Zane (Submitted by KneeTwo) (via quote-book)
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February 6, 2010
It’s been awhile. We have been awhile. I miss you. Deeply. I wish things could be different. I wish that we could just do this. Together. We are good for each other. You know it. I know it. I’m sick of pretending that my life on this side is amazing. Wonderful. It isn’t. Because you aren’t in it. The way that I want you to be. It isn’t easy. It will never be easy. My...
January 2010
15 posts
“I believe that two people are connected at the heart, and it doesn’t matter what...”
– Julia Roberts (via kari-shma) (via quote-book)
“There is no such thing as the perfect soul mate. If you meet someone and you...”
– Madonna (via kari-shma) (via quote-book)
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January 8, 2010
I don’t know how you do it. How you can continuously pull me back in when all I want to do is walk away. Your one of the only people in my life that I have ever allowed to do this to me. I thought I was stronger than that. I thought that I could have the strength to just run as fast as I could in the opposite direction without looking back. Sadly…I can not. I have tried harder at...
We Ain't
dearoldlove:
If you only want me when I pull away from you, how are we ever supposed to be together?
“You can’t control when you lose your heart. The only thing you can do is trust,...”
– Greys Anatomy (via kari-shma)
“The only reason I don’t let you go is because you said you would always be...”
– (via: Boy Meets Love) (via quote-book)
14013.) They all thought I was the homewrecker,...
(via blogsecret)
Feelings Alone
dearoldlove:
My feelings for you never died. I just realized I couldn’t live on feelings alone.
December 2009
43 posts
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December 30, 2009
It doesn’t matter what you say. It doesn’t matter what you do. You aren’t going to hurt me. You aren’t going to make me mad. Your trying as hard as you can to push me away. I know why. And so do you. My frustrations have reached the point where I felt like I couldn’t take anymore. I was so overwhelmed that day that when I said I wanted to walk, it was for your benefit...
I can't believe I have wasted so much time with...
(via loveorsomething)
The truth is he really isn’t. He is just trying to act like one.
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December 26, 2009
I posted a few days ago something that said, “You are my sweetest downfall.” At the time I didn’t put much thought into it. I liked the saying. Days later it made more sense.
You are my sweetest downfall. Our relationship is far from normal. It will forever be far from normal in anyone’s eyes. The way we met. How we fell insanely in love with each other. All the while,...
“Did you say it? I love you, I don’t ever want to live without you, you changed...”
– Meredith Grey - Grey’s Anatomy
submitted by lizzardlips
(via quote-book)
“If ever there is tomorrow when we’re not together.. there is something you must...”
– Winnie the Pooh | Submitted by: royalsadness (via quote-book)
“Truth is, everybody is going to hurt you, you just gotta figure out who’s worth...”
– Bob Marley (via tranashley) (via quote-book)
“I will wait for you
no matter how long it takes.
Forever for you.”
– Daily Haiku on Love by Tyler Knott Gregson (via tylerknott) (via kari-shma)