Letters To You

This year has flown by like the blink of an eye. The year as a whole has been hard. One of the hardest years I have had to face. The past couple months have been amazing. I hope it continues that way through the next year.

I went back not too long ago and read some of the things I have wrote. It has been nothing short of a roller coaster ride for me. This is something you will never see but I hope that someone out there can relate.

It’s hard to put emotions into words sometimes. The times that I wanted to scream at you at the top of my lungs. The days where I wasn’t sure if you were my forever or my right now. The times where you just couldn’t understand where I was coming from. It frustrated me. I’m not a fan of those times. I don’t expect bounds of joy all the time I just want a good neutral. A place where I feel safe, secure. A place where I know that for the rest of my life, you will be right here with me. Going through all of the ups and downs with me. I’m getting there. It will take time but I’m working towards that.

Sometimes I wonder if you are as serious as I am.

I love you. I have loved you for a very long time. I hope that you never falter from that. I hope that you always know where my heart is. It will always be with you.

To a fantastic 2011. I love you bay.